ICLW Week :)

Welcome! If you would like to know more about ICLW just click on the green icon to the right. If you are visiting here for the first time let me share a bit about myself and give you the summarized version of our story.


Michael and I have been married for 9 years and have been TTC our first for 6 1/2 years.

After 3 years of no pregnancies we discovered that I had PCOS causing annovulation so we decided to see an RE. We did 4 cycles of Clomid and the last one was successful, however it was a tubal pregnancy and I ended up losing a tube and our first child.

The next option after the Clomid we did injectables w/IUI. After 4 cycles the last one worked but not good enough as I miscarried early. Treatments and medications got increasingly expensive not to mention emotionally taxing on our hopes and dreams.

We felt that we needed to redirect our focus on other ways of building a family, so we will eventually be pursuing domestic infant adoption. We haven't yet made a formal decision on selecting an agency. We are still in the information stage and working through the emotions and grief of not being able to have children of our own. We are somewhere in the middle (hence the title of my blog) of no longer trying, but not yet ready for adoption.


Hopefully by the middle of this year we will be a bit further in the adoption process. I think that is it so far.

Happy ICLW week. I look forward to meeting new people.

ICLW Welcome :)

This is my first ICLW week. If you would like to know more about ICLW just click on the purple icon to the right. If you are visiting here for the first time let me share a bit about myself and give you the summarized version of our story.

Michael and I have been married for nearly 9 years and have been TTC our first for a little over 6 years. After 3 years of no pgs we decided to go see an RE.

We were diagnosed with PCOS, so the RE suggested a few cycles of Clomid. On the 4th cycle of Clomid in Feb 08 we thought it didn't work as the pg test I took at the RE's office was BFN. Two weeks later I was in the ER with severe pain. They made me take a pg test and it was positive. We were finally pregnant, but it joy was short-lived as I was rushed into surgery for an ectopic pregnancy. My tube was beyond saving so it needed to be removed along with our first child.

After six months of recovery, we continued with treatment, this time with injections and IUI. I overcame my fear of needles by learning how to give myself shots. We learned that with the IUI procedure, Kaiser only offers 3 cycles so if it didn't work after 3, it probably won't work at all, so we had 3 shots at this working. The first 3 cycles failed.

Because I responded well to the meds, they offered us a 4th cycle. The 4th IUI cycle was, by far, the best one we had since starting the injections. It worked, but not as well as we would have hoped. I miscarried early. Kaiser offered us another cycle, since this once was considered a m/c, but the cycles were exhausting our finances and our hopes of ever conceiving. So we decided to stop all further treatment.

Michael felt that we needed to redirect our focus on other ways of building a family, so we will eventually be pursuing domestic infant adoption. We haven't yet made a formal decision on selecting an agency. We are still in the information stage and working through the emotions and grief of not being able to have children of our own. We are somewhere in the middle (hence the title of my blog) of no longer trying, but not yet ready for adoption.

Hopefully by the middle of this year we will be a bit further in the adoption process. I think that is it so far.

Happy ICLW week. I look forward to meeting new people.

I figured it was about time...

...I started a blog. I'm not really going to say much in this post as its close to 11pm and I wasted a good 6 hours thinking of a blog description.

Anyway, I'm excited and a little scared to be posting my infertility journey on here, but I figured if it helps just one person out there, then I've done my job. And if it gets turned into a movie then I would like Kate Beckinsale to play me :) and Cary Elwes to play Michael.

I should probably use this post to explain the title of my blog "In The Middle With You". Its kind of where Michael (my husband) and I are in regards to our infertility journey.

After six years of trying to conceive our first child with no success using conventional or medical methods, we felt that it was time to move onto other ways to build a family. However, before we move onto adoption there are certain issues that we must deal with first, so for right now we are 'somewhere in the middle.'

I like that title. I feel it fits where we are and that is the purpose of this blog. But for some reason the song "The Middle" from Jimmy Eat World gets in my head.

Anyway, thanks for reading :)