This is my first ICLW week. If you would like to know more about ICLW just click on the purple icon to the right. If you are visiting here for the first time let me share a bit about myself and give you the summarized version of our story.
Michael and I have been married for nearly 9 years and have been TTC our first for a little over 6 years. After 3 years of no pgs we decided to go see an RE.
We were diagnosed with PCOS, so the RE suggested a few cycles of Clomid. On the 4th cycle of Clomid in Feb 08 we thought it didn't work as the pg test I took at the RE's office was BFN. Two weeks later I was in the ER with severe pain. They made me take a pg test and it was positive. We were finally pregnant, but it joy was short-lived as I was rushed into surgery for an ectopic pregnancy. My tube was beyond saving so it needed to be removed along with our first child.
After six months of recovery, we continued with treatment, this time with injections and IUI. I overcame my fear of needles by learning how to give myself shots. We learned that with the IUI procedure, Kaiser only offers 3 cycles so if it didn't work after 3, it probably won't work at all, so we had 3 shots at this working. The first 3 cycles failed.
Because I responded well to the meds, they offered us a 4th cycle. The 4th IUI cycle was, by far, the best one we had since starting the injections. It worked, but not as well as we would have hoped. I miscarried early. Kaiser offered us another cycle, since this once was considered a m/c, but the cycles were exhausting our finances and our hopes of ever conceiving. So we decided to stop all further treatment.
Michael felt that we needed to redirect our focus on other ways of building a family, so we will eventually be pursuing domestic infant adoption. We haven't yet made a formal decision on selecting an agency. We are still in the information stage and working through the emotions and grief of not being able to have children of our own. We are somewhere in the middle (hence the title of my blog) of no longer trying, but not yet ready for adoption.
Hopefully by the middle of this year we will be a bit further in the adoption process. I think that is it so far.
Happy ICLW week. I look forward to meeting new people.
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4 comments:
Lots of luck to you girl. It's hard to make that decision of when to stop and move on a different path. I hope you you find much happiness along this path.
BTW, I too am honest with people too and tell them exactly what you said. It works. :)
ICLW
Jenicini, its nice to meet you!!! Yes, I've found that honesty is surprisingly better than just sliding the truth under the rug. I've been keeping IF a secret for so long that I'm still not used to being honest with people. But like you said it works.
hi - we haven't been trying as long as you have, but we are relatively certain that we can't have kids, so that puts us in the same boat, huh.
my dh and i went to some IF counseling when we realized that we were done with treatment - to help us decide what should be our next steps. our counselor recommended a book called ADOPTING: Sound Choices, Strong Families, by Patricia Irwin Johnston. i really recommend checking it out.
good luck in your discernment process!
~j
ICLW
J, its nice to meet you :) Thanks for the book recommendation, I'll add it to my list of 'must reads'.
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